Today's workout (with my awesome trainer!) included deadlifts and other things involving bars and weights. I can never remember technical names for things. It took me a couple weeks to remember the term deadlift and even then, I was pretty sure that I wasn't saying it correctly because it seemed like an odd name. If I had to say it out loud, I would just kind of mumble or slur it, like how when you are singing a song and you don't know the words so you just make noises that sound close. Anyway, I have a tendency to never watch myself in the mirror when I'm doing these things and I know that's terrible because I should be watching to make sure my form is correct. You'd think I would want to do that because I LOVE doing things perfectly at the gym. Alas, this is not the case. I have come to the conclusion that it is because I still feel out of place in the weight room at the gym, despite the fact that I have been kicking booty down there for months. It's a hard feeling to describe but up until 4 months ago, I would have NEVER been the type to be doing these things and when I look in the mirror, I still kinda see that girl, even though I don't FEEL like that girl anymore. Does that make sense? It's like my brain, my eyes and my body as a whole are not connecting. I do totally belong down there and I'm getting more confident with these type of moves as the days go by and that's what matters in the end. Maybe I should make friends with some of the men I see down there all the time and we can come up with some kind of fist bump or handshake so that I feel a level of camaraderie. I'd suggest a chest bump but that would probably be going too far. Also, probably uncomfortable.
One last side note, I have discovered that one of my arms is longer than the other. What's up with that and why did it take me 27 years to make this discovery?